after years of smoking, stopping at will (but not often because i enjoy a good smoke more than many things) and taking it up just like that, i finally realised today i am addicted. it felt awful, made my mouth dry, tasted bitter, smelt the way it does and i just could not stop and knew i would be back for the second way earlier than ever.

i have rarely watched the telly in the last two years and now there is a new secret agent series on star world and i can't stop watching even though i am sleepy and watched half an episode of boston legal.

i can't get up and shut the system off either and i just don't know what the hell this post is about.

i don't like it when i spring nasty surprises on myself.

a little later: i did some pruning on my messenger now. knee-jerk reaction i guess.