what's wrong with me? i am frightfully zen, doing twice the normal amount of work way ahead of deadline, feeling a non-susbstance-induced euphoric haze, excited about christmas to the extent that i youtubed bruce springsteen version of santa claus is coming to town.
and i keep smiling for no reason which makes people very nervous.
i also had a supremely good walnut cake.

there is no reason for this whatsoever.

or is it the way normal people usually feel always and i didn't know it?